Reassessing

I've taken a few deep breaths, and have had time to reflect on my emotions from earlier. Mentally, I'm in a better place now.

Since 2023, I've been using a program that my work insurance pays the subscription for. It's a nice tool; I use it for some of my goal tracking, progress planning, etc. It even came with a smart scale so that I dont have to manually enter my metrics. And even though I have my own exercise and eating plans and I don't need/use theirs, it's quite nice to have access to expert-level references and guidance on all things health and fitness.

Until now, I've not had anything even remotely approaching this level of success since I've been on this app. My previous weight loss goals that it helped me outline were never close to being met. So, when I made my mind up this past May that I was going to seriously commit to getting fitter, one of my first moves was to get a projection from the app on what a healthy rate of weight loss would be, considering my age, current weight, etc. I set a 4 month goal, added weekly goals to my calendar, and began meticulously going about formulating my plan of attack.

Last week I hit my 4 month goal, a few days ahead of schedule even. This morning, I set a new 4 month goal; just like the last one, I used their automation tool to descern what the upper limit would be for it to still be deemed healthy and sustainable.

As it stands, I'm right on track. Even a smidgen ahead of schedule.

In hindsight, I didn't consider that my projected rate of fat loss would diminish as my weight continued to go down. And that's just plain stupid, because I know better, having gone through periods of extreme fat loss multiple times. These last few weeks, when my body has very clearly been fighting me, I was hard on myself to a fault. I wasn't paying close enough attention to realize that it was a natural response, and that my decelerated weight loss was to become expected, given my reduced body mass.

2 lbs a week is slightly better than what I should be doing. I'm not failing. I just need to make some diet adjustments so that I'm less suceptible to make the errors that I've been making, which were likely attributable to my needs changing.

But, even with those errors, I haven't lost ground - I just lacked the proper perspective to see that this is where I'm supposed to be right now.

Having said that... I still have a lot of work to do. And I do need to have fewer screwups going forward, because this ain't getting any easier.

I'm gonna go fix a bunch of calendar entries now.