Weekly weigh in

2 lbs down.

I struggled again this week. Not making excuses, or being ungrateful for my continued and consistent progress, but this wasn't good enough. I wasn't good enough.

I had 2-3 days where I was quite literally at the tipping point of falling off vs. maintaining my efforts. Lost focus, not keeping sight of my long-term goals. I felt fragile, deflated, and borderline defeated. Too many calories, not enough movement. I kept up with my protein goals, water goals, took my vitamins, but the fire wasn't there for a heightened effort like it had been.

It was a single moment when the fog cleared, and I came back to my senses. I'd had my pity party, my mental break, whatever it was - but now it was time to get my shit together and go back to work.

If I overate for meal 1, then it would be my only meal that day. If I didn't lift weights, I would double up the next day so that I kept on schedule going forward, even if I had to go up till midnight.

I grinded my way through thst sticking point, and it reminded me that those small battles are what wins the war. I remembered how I genuinely relish those moments once I'm in them - the trick is making sure that you show up for the fight.

I feel a lot more like myself again. I still have many challenges, but I'm going to face them with that fire burning hot inside me - not cowering in the face of my own mortality, waiting for my turn to die.

1 lb above of my monthly weight goal on one scale, 1 lb below it on the other. It is a pity, but Im still making progress that is quite substantial. And the job's not finished.

Let's GO